I have been thinking about what my blog is missing so far. I have noticed that I have not spoken about the diagnosis’ and triggers. Both of these I am not aiming to discuss much. I feel like professionals should always be the go to for advice on a diagnosis and how your triggers work. I am more interested in discussing what to do once you have a diagnosis and you know your triggers.
I have been diagnosed with mild depression and anxiety. I feel like it varies more than “mild”. Overall, the term is appropriate, but neglects the specifics in regards to someones illness, like varying severity. For brief periods, certain scales would have me at severe depression. This could lead to someone thinking I am over-reacting, if they know I am diagnosed as mild, yet not wanting to live anymore.
However, once you have a diagnosis, you can take steps forward to understanding your illness, and how to treat it that works for you. If you are not diagnosed, please go see a doctor and get one! Its the first and one of the most important steps! Please do not self diagnose, because you can get it wrong. This could lead to mistreating your illness and you will confuse others you speak to! Not good for that stigma thing!
Triggers are also helpful to move forward. Once you know what triggers your illness and how, again you can take steps to manage it. Some things are obvious and you can avoid it, or take steps to get used to it slowly. Other things might be deep rooted in your brain. That’s when you should really seek professional help. Professionals are trained to unlock the workings of your brain. Me, I wouldn’t have a clue!
What are my triggers? I have many, but I will describe one of them. For depression and anxiety, probably one of my biggest triggers is the fear that someone is thinking negatively about me. This means, I am awful at handling a big mistake in front of others. My anxiety kicks in immediately in the moment that I know that I have made a big mistake. Assuming I have, my depression will follow soon after. My world will feel like its caving in, and I will overthink it. Thoughts will be of the worst case scenario. Sometimes I will even want to die or run away!
Where I am at now, I know I can make a difference by doing this blog. I know that most of the time my illnesses won’t hold me back. I am slowly accepting that when they do hold me back, that’s ok. I need to be kind to myself and remember I am ill, and to not sweat it if I fail. So while I do not agree 100% with my diagnosis, I have taken it and understood what it means for me. As for triggers, I am at the point of identifying them. I still need to work out what to do with them, but that will come in time.
Whats your diagnosis? What triggers you? How have knowing these, helped you?